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broken strings

Let me hold you
For the last time
It’s the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can’t feel anything
When I love you,
It’s so untrue
I can’t even convince myself
When I’m speaking,
It’s the voice of someone else
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it’s not enough to make it all okay
You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything that your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell you something that ain’t real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire
When there’s nothing left to save
It’s like chasing the very last train when it’s too late
Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it’s not enough to make it all okay
You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything that your heart don’t want to feel
I can’t tell something that ain’t real
Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
But we’re running through the fire
When there’s nothing left to save
It’s like chasing the very last train
When we both know it’s too late (too late)
You can’t play on broken strings
You can’t feel anything that your heart don’t want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain’t real
Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before
Let me hold you for the last time
It’s the last chance to feel again

apostrphe

apostrophe

-gloria garchitorena goloy-

 

o let me, loved absentee

think of you tonight

as one who fashioned with a free

hand a labeled right

to pick your way within me

i wish to break my patry bread

with you and pour

your wine and fix your bed

the while you weave a love

of magic music round my head

and i shall put aside the best

of pillows, set my brow

against the cushion of your chest

nor ask you how

my cheek upon its mate shall rest

so when i think of you tonight

o loved absentee

my thoughts shall put to flight

the poverty

of my sight

anguish

as i was falling asleep

i wonder if you think of me

i thought of the nights we used to be together

as we ccuddled each other

until we fall asleep

i want to feel that thing again

the way you touched my hair

those sleepy eyes i stared at

that pinch i wud make on your nose

that kiss that’ll make me gently fall asleep

the warm hug that a teddy bear cud not give

that precious warmth that only you could give

the gentle voicce saying those three words

i cherished so much that it made my world

the warm breath on my neck

an assurance you wont leave me even for a sec

i can hear your heartbeat

the song that lulls me to sleep

 

as i was falling asleep

i cried tears that could make the river deep

those memories of you and i

our love should’ve not end nor die

for my love for you is still the same

i wont feel deprived nor ashamed

denial

i dont want to see your face

but i’ll hold it in such a haste

i dont need to kiss your lips

but i’ll touch it gently with my fingertips

 

i sont miss your smile

but i prayed to see you for a while

i dont need your hug

it cant replace an old cotton bag

 

i dont want you but i miss you

i dont need you but i love you

these feelings i cant hide

i just cover it with my pride

a short story

A Love on a Midnight Dream

 

            She was standing alone at the corridor waiting for him patiently. Once he stepped out the door, he grasped her hand, held it tightly as they walk to the exit. She felt so secured when he is with him. She really loves this man, and she couldn’t wish for another, she only wishes for them to last longer than forever. He looked at her with love in his eyes. He held her hand tighter as if he would not let her go. They held each other’s hands tightly, lovingly and carefully; they were a picture of a happy relationship.

 

            She was doing some reports for the next day; he stopped by her office and gave her an encouraging smile. He was so supportive of her, he always let her do what she wants and help her with all he can. She stared at him, look at him in his eyes, smiling sweetly with all the love she had for him. He stood at the door leaving it open and staring at her the same way she did. They stared at each other like nobody could ever keep them away.

 

            She went to the restaurant he said. There he was standing tall with a bouquet of flowers in his hands. His lips said “I love you” without a sound. She whispered “I love you too”. He handed her the flowers and they danced with the music of the violin. She rested her head on his shoulders, she would want to cry. He kissed her and whispered those three words on her ears, so sweetly and softly. They danced like there’s no tomorrow, they brace each other tightly with all the love they felt for each other.

 

            He drove the car with her on the passenger seat. He reached for her hand and held it tight. He kissed her hand as a sign of his love and care for her. She told him, “I love you”, and he cherished those. She stared at him while he was driving, as if she would not want to take her eyes off him. She loves this man a lot, he is full of surprises, and she barely knew he could drive. He caught her staring at him; he smiled and touched her cheeks.

 

            She cooked dinner for both of them. They ate facing each other and feeding the other happily. They shared funny stories and laughs while eating. They shared a good meal and good stories together as if they were not tired from work. He stopped and stared at her, he smiled and said he’s a lucky man for having her. She felt so happy that he felt the same way as she does and she could not wish for anything more.

 

            They lie next to each other and stare at the sky. They gaze up on the stars that twinkle in the night sky. His arm was placed behind her neck making it as her pillow. Her arms embraced him to lessen the cold for they were at the beach making the waves and breeze as their companion. Together, they feed the dogs and each other. They were having fun. They hugged each other as tight as they could as they were standing on the sand and while the waves rush through their feet. They whisper those three words gently and softly with all the feelings, care, passion and love for each other.

 

            She saw him from afar, he looked at her. He smiled, she saw his face on a close-up this time, and his lips read “I love you”. She memorized his face, the face of the man he loves; every curve, every line, the depth of his eyes, the thickness of his brows, the fullness of his cheeks, the shape of his lips, the look of his teeth, his face, his hair. She memorized every inch of him, every small detail of his face. Then suddenly, his face slowly fades, slowly vanishing from her sight.

 

            It was dawn; the night was still in sight. She gasped for air, it was only a dream. She dreamt of him every night. She cried herself to sleep at night, she hasn’t moved on yet from their breakup. She knew she has to move on but she can’t help herself to make it. All their memories together are now part of history. Their love didn’t last, as though they tried. Memories of him haunt her, his voice, his facade, his breath; it all comes back to her making it hard for her to let go. It was dark, cold and lonely; she shut her eyes and tried to go back to sleep. She hugged her cold pillow as tears fall down to her cheeks.

 

 

 

the next time…

the next time i fall

i’ll make sure i’ll give it all

that the blame would not be on me

and it’ll not be easy for them to set me free

 

the next time i care

i’ll make all things fair

that there’ll be no reason

for you and me to let go

 

the next time

i’ll make it sublime

i’ll cherish everytime

i’ll make his everyday a smile

my blogs, my poems

everyday, i smile, to prove that im happy

i laugh, for them to see im care free

i spill jokes, to make them not notice

that my eyes would want to shed tears

 

everyday, i get busy, to things i should

for me to forget, i know i could

i want to take you off my head

i tried, and fail instead

 

everyday since we were part

broken is the state of my heart

if only i could turn back time

to those days while you were mine

 

someday, maybe i will learn

the lessons on the pain i earned

yesterday’s gone with you

i need to face the future without you

 

i wish someday, i would learn to forget you

just remember that i have loved you

with all my heart it is true

me and you is gone, i should accept

but our yesterday, i’d never regret..

 

my birthday

my bday this year 2008 is memorable,,

i celebrate with new friends, new people, new family, hahah

exciting, fun and happy,

kahit na konti lang handa ko,

kahit na babay gin lang ininom namin, masarap naman xa,

unusual, iba ung feeling ko, hindi naman sa ayaw ko sa mga kasama,

i enjoyed their company so much, “kaibigang tunay” nga eh,

hahah, love ‘em!

basta iba lang ung feeling, kasi ibang tao na ang kasama ko, wala ung usual na mga kasama ko, ung mga classmates ko last two years,

ngayong third year ang dami talaga pinagbago,

bagong classmates, bagong barkada, bagong pakikisama, bagong sarili na rin,

well, that’s life noh, everything changes,

kahit na you don’t want it to change..

@_@

this love is taking all of my energy

i wish i could rip out a page of my memory
cuz i put to much energy in him and me
can’t wait til i get through this phase
cuz it’s killing me
to bad we can’t re-write our own history

such a mystery when he’s here with me
it’s hard to believe i’m still lonely
chances fading now, patience running out
this ain’t how it’s supposed to be

i’m having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
how do we reverse the chemistry?
i don’t want us to be the end of me
this love is taking all of my energy
energy, my energy
taking all my energy
energy, my energy
taking all of (my energy)

seems only like yesterday, not even gravity
could keep your feet off the ground when you go to me
how can two be as one
we’ve become to divided now
there’s no use hiding from my misery

such a mystery when he’s here with me
it’s hard to believe i’m still lonely
chances fading now, patience running out
this ain’t how it’s supposed to be
[ Keri Hilson Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]

i’m having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy (oh, yeah)
how do we reverse the chemistry? (we gotta re-)
i don’t want us to be the end of me
this love is taking all of my energy
energy, my energy
taking all my energy (energy)
energy (energy), my energy (energy)
taking all of

now i can feel a change in me
and i can afford a slippage
from the person i was meant to be
i’m not afraid to move alone
not give it up but moving on
before it gets to deep
cause your taking all of my energy

i’m having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
how do we reverse the chemistry?
i don’t want us to be the end of me
this love is taking all of my energy
energy, my energy
taking all my energy
energy, my energy
taking all of (my energy) x2
ya killing me
ya taking all of me
oh
this love is taking all my energy

 

taking all of my energy!!

its very hard to forget somene like you,

it’s been almost 6months!!

i lost count..

i cry myself to sleep

ubos na luha ko!

damn you!

 

bwahahah!

 

 

 

CHASING CARS

THOSE THREE WORDS ARE SAID TOO MUCH,,

right?!

 

I don’t quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words,
are said too much
they’re not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that’s bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They’re all I can see

I don’t know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

—-__this is one of my favorite songs,, hindi complete ang lyrics dito,, but all my favorite lines are here,,