rhowNah_mhEy’s Blog
apostrphe
apostrophe
-gloria garchitorena goloy-
o let me, loved absentee
think of you tonight
as one who fashioned with a free
hand a labeled right
to pick your way within me
i wish to break my patry bread
with you and pour
your wine and fix your bed
the while you weave a love
of magic music round my head
and i shall put aside the best
of pillows, set my brow
against the cushion of your chest
nor ask you how
my cheek upon its mate shall rest
so when i think of you tonight
o loved absentee
my thoughts shall put to flight
the poverty
of my sight
anguish
as i was falling asleep
i wonder if you think of me
i thought of the nights we used to be together
as we ccuddled each other
until we fall asleep
i want to feel that thing again
the way you touched my hair
those sleepy eyes i stared at
that pinch i wud make on your nose
that kiss that’ll make me gently fall asleep
the warm hug that a teddy bear cud not give
that precious warmth that only you could give
the gentle voicce saying those three words
i cherished so much that it made my world
the warm breath on my neck
an assurance you wont leave me even for a sec
i can hear your heartbeat
the song that lulls me to sleep
as i was falling asleep
i cried tears that could make the river deep
those memories of you and i
our love should’ve not end nor die
for my love for you is still the same
i wont feel deprived nor ashamed
denial
i dont want to see your face
but i’ll hold it in such a haste
i dont need to kiss your lips
but i’ll touch it gently with my fingertips
i sont miss your smile
but i prayed to see you for a while
i dont need your hug
it cant replace an old cotton bag
i dont want you but i miss you
i dont need you but i love you
these feelings i cant hide
i just cover it with my pride
a short story
A Love on a Midnight Dream
She was standing alone at the corridor waiting for him patiently. Once he stepped out the door, he grasped her hand, held it tightly as they walk to the exit. She felt so secured when he is with him. She really loves this man, and she couldn’t wish for another, she only wishes for them to last longer than forever. He looked at her with love in his eyes. He held her hand tighter as if he would not let her go. They held each other’s hands tightly, lovingly and carefully; they were a picture of a happy relationship.
She was doing some reports for the next day; he stopped by her office and gave her an encouraging smile. He was so supportive of her, he always let her do what she wants and help her with all he can. She stared at him, look at him in his eyes, smiling sweetly with all the love she had for him. He stood at the door leaving it open and staring at her the same way she did. They stared at each other like nobody could ever keep them away.
She went to the restaurant he said. There he was standing tall with a bouquet of flowers in his hands. His lips said “I love you” without a sound. She whispered “I love you too”. He handed her the flowers and they danced with the music of the violin. She rested her head on his shoulders, she would want to cry. He kissed her and whispered those three words on her ears, so sweetly and softly. They danced like there’s no tomorrow, they brace each other tightly with all the love they felt for each other.
He drove the car with her on the passenger seat. He reached for her hand and held it tight. He kissed her hand as a sign of his love and care for her. She told him, “I love you”, and he cherished those. She stared at him while he was driving, as if she would not want to take her eyes off him. She loves this man a lot, he is full of surprises, and she barely knew he could drive. He caught her staring at him; he smiled and touched her cheeks.
She cooked dinner for both of them. They ate facing each other and feeding the other happily. They shared funny stories and laughs while eating. They shared a good meal and good stories together as if they were not tired from work. He stopped and stared at her, he smiled and said he’s a lucky man for having her. She felt so happy that he felt the same way as she does and she could not wish for anything more.
They lie next to each other and stare at the sky. They gaze up on the stars that twinkle in the night sky. His arm was placed behind her neck making it as her pillow. Her arms embraced him to lessen the cold for they were at the beach making the waves and breeze as their companion. Together, they feed the dogs and each other. They were having fun. They hugged each other as tight as they could as they were standing on the sand and while the waves rush through their feet. They whisper those three words gently and softly with all the feelings, care, passion and love for each other.
She saw him from afar, he looked at her. He smiled, she saw his face on a close-up this time, and his lips read “I love you”. She memorized his face, the face of the man he loves; every curve, every line, the depth of his eyes, the thickness of his brows, the fullness of his cheeks, the shape of his lips, the look of his teeth, his face, his hair. She memorized every inch of him, every small detail of his face. Then suddenly, his face slowly fades, slowly vanishing from her sight.
It was dawn; the night was still in sight. She gasped for air, it was only a dream. She dreamt of him every night. She cried herself to sleep at night, she hasn’t moved on yet from their breakup. She knew she has to move on but she can’t help herself to make it. All their memories together are now part of history. Their love didn’t last, as though they tried. Memories of him haunt her, his voice, his facade, his breath; it all comes back to her making it hard for her to let go. It was dark, cold and lonely; she shut her eyes and tried to go back to sleep. She hugged her cold pillow as tears fall down to her cheeks.
the next time…
the next time i fall
i’ll make sure i’ll give it all
that the blame would not be on me
and it’ll not be easy for them to set me free
the next time i care
i’ll make all things fair
that there’ll be no reason
for you and me to let go
the next time
i’ll make it sublime
i’ll cherish everytime
i’ll make his everyday a smile
my blogs, my poems
everyday, i smile, to prove that im happy
i laugh, for them to see im care free
i spill jokes, to make them not notice
that my eyes would want to shed tears
everyday, i get busy, to things i should
for me to forget, i know i could
i want to take you off my head
i tried, and fail instead
everyday since we were part
broken is the state of my heart
if only i could turn back time
to those days while you were mine
someday, maybe i will learn
the lessons on the pain i earned
yesterday’s gone with you
i need to face the future without you
i wish someday, i would learn to forget you
just remember that i have loved you
with all my heart it is true
me and you is gone, i should accept
but our yesterday, i’d never regret..
my birthday
my bday this year 2008 is memorable,,
i celebrate with new friends, new people, new family, hahah
exciting, fun and happy,
kahit na konti lang handa ko,
kahit na babay gin lang ininom namin, masarap naman xa,
unusual, iba ung feeling ko, hindi naman sa ayaw ko sa mga kasama,
i enjoyed their company so much, “kaibigang tunay” nga eh,
hahah, love ‘em!
basta iba lang ung feeling, kasi ibang tao na ang kasama ko, wala ung usual na mga kasama ko, ung mga classmates ko last two years,
ngayong third year ang dami talaga pinagbago,
bagong classmates, bagong barkada, bagong pakikisama, bagong sarili na rin,
well, that’s life noh, everything changes,
kahit na you don’t want it to change..
@_@
this love is taking all of my energy
i wish i could rip out a page of my memory
cuz i put to much energy in him and me
can’t wait til i get through this phase
cuz it’s killing me
to bad we can’t re-write our own history
such a mystery when he’s here with me
it’s hard to believe i’m still lonely
chances fading now, patience running out
this ain’t how it’s supposed to be
i’m having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
how do we reverse the chemistry?
i don’t want us to be the end of me
this love is taking all of my energy
energy, my energy
taking all my energy
energy, my energy
taking all of (my energy)
seems only like yesterday, not even gravity
could keep your feet off the ground when you go to me
how can two be as one
we’ve become to divided now
there’s no use hiding from my misery
such a mystery when he’s here with me
it’s hard to believe i’m still lonely
chances fading now, patience running out
this ain’t how it’s supposed to be
[ Keri Hilson Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
i’m having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy (oh, yeah)
how do we reverse the chemistry? (we gotta re-)
i don’t want us to be the end of me
this love is taking all of my energy
energy, my energy
taking all my energy (energy)
energy (energy), my energy (energy)
taking all of
now i can feel a change in me
and i can afford a slippage
from the person i was meant to be
i’m not afraid to move alone
not give it up but moving on
before it gets to deep
cause your taking all of my energy
i’m having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
how do we reverse the chemistry?
i don’t want us to be the end of me
this love is taking all of my energy
energy, my energy
taking all my energy
energy, my energy
taking all of (my energy) x2
ya killing me
ya taking all of me
oh
this love is taking all my energy
taking all of my energy!!
its very hard to forget somene like you,
it’s been almost 6months!!
i lost count..
i cry myself to sleep
ubos na luha ko!
damn you!
bwahahah!
CHASING CARS
THOSE THREE WORDS ARE SAID TOO MUCH,,
right?!
I don’t quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words,
are said too much
they’re not enough
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that’s bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They’re all I can see
I don’t know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
—-__this is one of my favorite songs,, hindi complete ang lyrics dito,, but all my favorite lines are here,,